Been moving slowly today, but making some progress in the project: Cleaning the Cabin. I’m actually starting to feel pretty motivated to continue and move to the next project. Cleaning my room is definitely helping my mood and my attitude. I’m getting a little tired and Elanor has been playing pretty hard for the past 2 hours. But she is finally taking a break in her chair.
Added a monitor to my computer system, which I hope will help with the progression of adding content to the NunyaRanch.com Website. Still have many posts to write and publish.
I’ve also been working on ideas to post on TikTok and YouTube. The progress to the buildings is still moving slowly. Slower than what I thought would move. I’m also very scared of the next tasks that I need to do to complete the buildings. Well, only the electricity part. The rest of the tasks are not complicated and not intimating as much as the electricity.
Anxiety Is Climbing and Dropping
I’ve been having better days lately. Last week when I arrived back at the Nunya, my anxiety was through the roof. I couldn’t stay motivated and time was passing by and I was not accomplishing anything. Which just made my anxiety grow, as I looked around and saw the mess that is my life. This that I have chosen has become my nightmare. But it’s my nightmare only because I see it that way.
Yesterday after having a semi-productive day. My anxiety has been dropping as I continue to clean and organize this mess that I have been living in.
Today, I was actually thinking that I have no reason to go back to my old home. My wife is still there but the remaining stuff that is at our house is very very minimal. There are some big things still left but nothing I couldn’t live without.
Feeling more comfortable with my situation here at the ranch I pulled out my amp and guitar and started jamming really loud to the crowd of nothing. It was very fun to get my toy out of storage and do a little concert for Elanor. Not sure if she liked it but she stuck around and had a smile when I was composing a song with her name. She did however move away from the guitar as I tried to show it to her.
Amazon Order is on the way
Still waiting for the Amazon Order to arrive at the locker in town. Was thinking that even if the order is said to arrive tomorrow, that doesn’t mean that it is going to arrive in the morning. Which means that I will probably have to wait for Thursday to drive an hour into town.
Another obstacle and another day that I must wait to move forward. Slowly getting closer to my goal of installing the electricity in the building in order for my wife to come and live with me and finally stop messing with this project. You know cause it’s been a fucken YEAR!