It has been a good long day.
Was awakened by thunder, it was 5 am so I said, why not?
Took Elanor outside and no rain. Well maybe a little bit, the ground was more than just wet but the concrete path to the front door was dry. So I figured it must of rain during the night. And that was that.
30 minutes later the rain starts and it starts hard. The entire front porch was drenched and water was beginning to collect in the grooves of the property. Especially the large one on the other side of the metal fence. That was becoming a small lake.
Lots of thunder and lots of lighting. It was terrifying when the lights flickered off for 3 seconds. Long 3 seconds.
Elanor was not phased by it. Not one bit.
She was just like, throw me the ball or the chewed-up stick. Throw something!
Reading not nerd
I was determined to not partake in the consumption of numbing agents until something was completed. Something big and worthy of the numb.
Since I wasn’t going to get the trencher today. Or Tomorrow. Or Wednesday. Maybe Thursday. I decided to finish reading the electrical basic book. You know the one I was supposed to read but didn’t cause… Well, you know.
In order to complete the book, I have to read 65 pages a day. That is a lot of pages and I haven’t read in a long time. Since the rain was still going hard and Elanor was sitting in her chair nice and quietly, I said why not?
So I read 67 pages in a span of 6 hours. 10 pages an hour. Is that good? not sure. This is not a big book but it doesn’t fit in your pocket. And it would dwarf a bookshelf shelf. Maybe something you keep in your toolbox? Like that big with 300 pages.
You Don’t Know
I never understood the saying, You don’t know what you don’t know. I was always like, what? What does that even mean?
Then this whole experience entered my insignificant existence. And Now. I Understand. The world becomes clear. All other memories start connecting with this simple understanding.
My progression is slow and I mostly blame myself. But You don’t know what you don’t know. And I see clearly that if I knew what I now know, the process would have taken a lot faster. I probably would have been done in 3 months like I thought I would be when I first started a year ago.
Everything I’ve learned in this project was learned slowly and painfully. I have injuries that I will carry for the rest of my life. Which hopefully is very long. Very very long.
The best I can do moving forward is reward myself with what I love most in the world for a few hours of work toward my dreams and lifestyle. I say maybe like 10 hours but maybe I should start with 6 or two fours. But two fours might become a problem if I enjoy the reward too much.
I guess I’ll try 6 hours since that’s what I did today.
Elanor is Crazy
Took Elanor for a walk. For like two hours. We return to the cabin and she wants me to throw her stuff. I’m getting really tired of how non-stop she is.
I’m thinking that maybe I should get her a treadmill for dogs. Even though I have acres for her to run, she just wants to be by my side, which is great! but I’m tired and want to rest for a bit.