So many ideas, of what I can do if I don’t have a job to go to. Them, here it is. No job. No idea. Really?!
Been trying to contact my family to say hi and get some love from them but they all seem to busy to talk to me or just possibly ignoring my calls, text, emails.
I had some what of am Idea of what I should have been doing when I was high. Right now not so much. Could it be that I’m not saying my self but medicating myself?
Why do I feel better when I’m high?
Why do I have energy and motivation to do and accomplish when I’m high?
Could it be?
Focus on learning
Going to start focusing my time to learn. I have a blogging course that I continue to pay for every month. Income school.
I’ll start watching the videos and applying the lessons to my beekeeping blog. Which by the way had reached over 1000 all time views.
I mean it is paid traffic but still the cost is not that much.
Maybe if I get better at this skill called blogging and sending traffic to some kind of offer. I might not need to get a job in three months.
Maybe?!😁
Dropping value
On a different note. The value of the house is doing according to the city assessor. Not sure if it will be beneficial to sell the house right now. But if not now when?
My 41st birthday is coming up in 9 or so weeks. I’m not mentally prepared to deal with it.
I’m not prepared to be a year older.
How do I get prepared?
I just want a bowl to rid myself of this sadness.